If we had the money

Today I have been thinking about what I would do if I had the money. There are many nice things out there, and if I had a super disposable income I wouldn't even think of blogging in an attempt to make money (or for the cheap therapy aspect). But it really got me thinking about the thin ice I am skating on right now. My family insurance is lacking, savings is none, income is higher than it has ever been, but disposable income is not even in my vocabulary. I have a lot of debt, and with a wife in college, a ton more is on the way.

I have had enough. At the moment I am worried that any little thing will rock my tiny boat financially and I will sink to the bottom of the ocean of dept like a stone.

The sad thing is that my long term goals include sending my kids to college, buying a nice little house, and, God Willing, start a non-profit organization. How to get from point A to point B is really beyond me. I guess patience is in order. Either that or we get 10 million Internet users to all Paypal me a dollar (or a few), and then I change the world for the better. I am open to suggestions.

Bettering Myself

Slowly dragging myself out of bed this morning, I quickly found that I that I was too tired to spring into my usual routine. Why would this be? I had worked a fair share on things the day before, but I certainly didn't wear myself out. I felt like something was wrong. While I was thinking about this, I stumbled into the shower to try to get my body moving a little faster. Then it hit me. Maybe it is a combination of diet, stress, and environment. Yes, that explanation would cover all of the bases in life. I truly have no idea.

After my slow start, I decided that I should dedicate a good portion of my day to getting my house in order. It is the Biblical way to go, and it was truly driving me crazy. I cleaned, and I cleaned, and I took care of the garbage, and scrubbed my front room until every last God forsaken misplaced Cheerio was vacuumed up or eaten by my two year old. Just kidding, but the kids did leave quite a mess in the house.

I continued on with my day, all the while thinking about what I could blog about that would be profitable and beneficial to the world. Then it dawned on me.

Am I crazy, or does it seem that the less gas I use, the higher my monthly cost? Same with power, water, and food. I actually would like to have another kid, but I sure don't want to do that with the amount of debt I currently have. Also, I am renting a house from my grandparents. It is a good gig, but it would certainly not accommodate another person...

I am a youngish male father who actually works for a living. I can't possibly be the only one in my situation that feels the same way; broke ten days before payday, too tired to be effective, lacking ambition, and left with too much debt. I make more now than I ever have previously. I am trying to break away from my former life of food stamps, state medical, and cashing in cans to get enough gas to get me to work until payday. But what in the world changed. More importantly, what can I do, besides try to make more money, to fix it?

Life is...

I started writing a really long and drawn out reason for me to be depressed or disappointed myself today. I was thinking about the analogies I could use in this blog to express my points, and rant about my current situation. Then it dawned on me, I am doing this to better my situation, and assist others. Why should I down myself. I seem to be on a strange emotional roller coaster today. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe it is because I obsess about my debt. Maybe it is because I have two kids. I don't know. But what I do know is that I can...

Life at the borrom of the food chain

So, what will you find here. I have had quite a few life experiences. I wanted to share them with the world. I started it as a subpage on one of my websites, but I quickly found I was really writing them in blog form. So, why not rant here where the pages are up consistently and there is already a solid following.