Attitude of love and forgiveness

What a hard thing. I'm not going to go into details, but let's just say it is easier to forgive than to have God beat you over the head and heart with lessons on unforgiveness for an extended period of time. :D

Depression is a bitch

So, wow, not really updating this blog like I thought I would. Been too busy. OK, so I decided to kick the bottom up perspective and start focusing on what would be best for the family. So, step 1, prayed to God.
Step 2, walked away.


That's right, I stopped worrying about stuff. OK, I tell myself that I am not worrying about stuff, and then I keep praying. So, guess what happened?

Still have some stomach issues, but getting a lot better. This is probably due to:

New Job. Love it. Not sure if I am allowed to post where I work or not, but I will say that you should click on the sales link to a particular website on this page and start buying stuff from the link... Thanks. :)

New home. Couldn't buy, 2 loans fell through because of the changes. No big deal, in a killer rental for now.

New camera, check out the camera blog.

New computer for Alison, new monitor for me. Check out the CP PC woes blog.

New Baby!!!! Johnathan was born! We love him. Check out my Facebook page and photo pages for cool shots. E-mail me for more details.

Last but not least, a new found outlook. I don't have to worry, I can let God handle the issues and have faith. My wife is the queen of faith. Fortunately, she is also the queen of humility so she would never admit that.

Life is good. There is still more to say, but I don't feel that I am living life at the bottom of the food chain at this point. Which is good. Pray it stays this way. Probably won's post much here anymore. But seriously, click the links, I still need the money.

WM

Baby on the way, Gots to move

So, baby on the way, new thoughts concerning my current job and potential other employment, current job stress, baby on the way, need to move, car problems, church stress, custody stress, started getting ill stress, money stress, coworker stress, stress stress, finally got the better of me. I ended up getting sick at a very inopportune time and ended up looking like a total flake. Couldn't be helped. I still get sick every time I eat. I saw a doctor, and they thought Gallbladder. I saw a surgeon who wasn't so sure, but wants to take it anyway. Decisions Decisions.

So I put off the surgery for now until I pay down our current medical stuff. Don't get me wrong, I don't like to feel ill. However, the abrupt diet change has been extremely beneficial for all of those in our family. Ironically, I feel that if I go ahead and have this surgery, which is almost an elective surgery at this point, then we wouldn't be able to afford the vast quantities of higher quality food we now eat. Plus, I have seen substantial improvement. It just sucks.

Don't get me wrong, by higher quality I simply mean, not crap. No more greasy, from the box, or from the can food. We aren't eating steak and lobster here. Just more veggies, juices, no more butter, salt, sugar foods. You get the idea.

Torn between two opposites I weigh them out publicly for your amusement.
Lower quality food + stress = digestive issues = doctors / labs/ etc = $$

$$ + doctors = stress
$$ + doctors + stress = digestive issues (square one)

So get to the bottom of the issue:
doctors / labs/ etc = $$= Poor house + debt = lower quality food

Lower quality food = problems for everyone


But if I stay not 100%
No $ issues + better quality food - stress may= less stomach issues
Less stomach issues may = less stress

+ nobody else has health issues for a while, especially the kids who developed bad eating habits thanks to my love for Italian and other fatty foods.

Unless I develop Gallbladder cancer, then I'm a dead man.


This is stupid, I need 5000 people to Paypal me a dollar so I can get this taken care of before the baby comes, or I find a better job, or I move, or all of the above.

Oh, did I mention we are trying to move, and we are having a baby, and I am looking at my current job situation = stress

Time for a vacation

= less money +job stress +kid stress & being bored on vacation = lower quality food.
So hungry

Holy cow it has been a long time

Holy cow it has been a long time since I last posted a blog to this page.

A TON has happened since my last bitch-fest online. Luckily for the current 0 members of the viewing audience, neither leaving my rants nor adding to them has affected no one.

Good.

Ok, so now, Remarried. Took down the ex-wife's links from my blogs. Life is pretty good.
Still living in the rental. Dreams soon to be achieved, looking at funding for a piece of property.

1 away from 30, and having bizarre health crap. Mostly related to digestion, but that is a topic for another blog entry.

Let us begin.